Emma’s palatial hip rose somewhere beyond his knees, although her silhouette was so flat against the wall he could not tell in which direction she faced. Grazing her shoulder blade, he found she was once again wearing his old sweater. He could not say he felt the draft that chilled her on either on his face or in his veins, but he did hear it rattling the doorknob, whistling through the keyhole, and even chiming in a snarl of clothes hangers in the closet.

Another bump arose to the doorknob—only this time it was definitely not from a draft; Michael braced himself. Light washing in around the jamb preceded a groan. Something clinking like metal dropped to the floor in the hall. More wood whined under the claw end of a hammer as another nail fell. When a third nail was removed, only the wedged chair was left as a barrier. The glass doorknob rocked again, but the piece of furniture held. The light source fell in a cloak lower on the door face, yet no gleam, no crooked shaft or wire, passed through the keyhole. On reaching the gap at the floor the illumination fanned in and tossed the four legs of the wedged chair high onto the facing wall. Inexplicably, the finger-like shadows began moving independently of one another. The fearful man watched the intruders tiptoe from corner to corner. Occasionally they overlapped, as if communicating, but directly resumed their rigid forms as chair legs. With the odd ballet completed, the light in the hallway shrank away on the tread of feet.

Michael, sweating, shot up on the bed. “Martians!” he said aloud. He looked down at Emma still sleeping, and knew he had been sleeping, too.

Restless, he tossed off the sheets to climb into the cooler air. The door was unstuck before he quietly—timorously—ventured out into the unexplored house. Creaking floorboards plumbed the long shadows like sonar, placing him within earshot of the neighbor’s dog still scratching at the backdoor. He bumped Emma’s purse slung over a chair and, feeling its loose clasp, stuck a hand in among the lipstick dispensers and compacts; the lover could not say what he was looking for. He glanced around the moonless room for clues, discerning by shape what could only be the most nondescript of furnishings; yet these things were as exotic and remote to him as anything he was likely to find in her purse. His hands fumbled over glass grapes in a bowl, and then over a rooster weathervane nailed to a wall, but his emotions were stunted in his fingertips, as though meeting with indecipherable Braille. He quietly opened the cupboard where Emma had earlier removed a candle, and felt more candles inside. Only these were used up candles, set in a thoughtful row. He smelled one, and then another, and knew from their scent what they meant… knew from their flat, oblong shapes what each in its turn had chronicled at length… knew from their arrangement—their presence—what collectively they commemorated for her…

Starlight marked the way past the kitchen, where the whimpering pet was glimpsed in a doorframe of mesh and glass. The surveyor abruptly found himself in an auxiliary room that was perhaps once a porch, yet now appeared to be a darkroom. A sheet of rubylith was taped over its only window, which illuminated scores of photographs tacked to a clapboard wall. The depicted figures at first resembled cadavers under pond ice, but as each nude body inched its way up to the surface of his perception, they were, like the candles, quickly getting under his skin. The images were all of the same couple engaged in various sexual positions, only spied through a tenebrous keyhole.

Michael compressed, shrinking under the pitiless view, for he could now see from outside what he could not see from inside. The shadows on the walls had belonged to another… They had not mirrored his movements, but he, in a suppliant manner, had mirrored theirs…

“No diaphragm…” he murmured at last. “No birth control pills…”

The dog broke the streaming pictures by pouncing harder on the door. It then turned off the stoop and disappeared into the dark yard. Michael was already leaning back on his heels when it reemerged seconds later for another assault; he was certain it was not the same dog. The animal reared up on its hind legs with a whine before circling back into the pitch. It approached the stoop a third time without touching the door, and then a fourth, and then a fifth. With each dash by the screen it appeared larger. The dog momentarily disappeared from view, but this was no cause for relief. Michael stepped away from the fetishistic photographs to examine the strange lock on the backdoor. It was made of wood and consisted of a long dowel-like plunger set in a grooved slot that ran the length of the door molding. He thrust the sliding part down tight against the baseboard, but could not see how it would brace the door. Puzzling, he was slow to realize he was standing nose-to-nose with something on the other side of the glass. It was no longer a dog, yet nothing like a man…

A light switched on behind him.

“Michael?” she called from the doorway. “Are you sleepwalking?”

He shot around in a fading mutter. “I thought I heard prowlers.”

“Are you sure you’re not sleepwalking?”

Nothing was at the backdoor; the photographs on display were only commercial wedding portraits, baby pictures… “Maybe,” he confessed.

Emma turned back to the kitchen, flipping off the light on the gallery. “Come to bed,” she said.

The night wanderer did not immediately follow, but lingered to compose himself. He retraced the noisy floorboards and crawled back into bed with his unshakable unease, as he would always need verbal permission to share this space with her.

Emma gave it to him in the form of a soft complaint. “There’s a chill on my back.” She reached around to find his wrist under the cover and drew him, limb for limb, into the attitude of her body.

The wee hours of the morning always found his defenses in disarray, with his mind scrambling to remarry his barely owned skin to a barely plausible myth of the world. In such moments, everything not immediately tactile was appreciated for what it truly was: utter and irredeemable absurdity. A large hole at the elbow of her sweater readily accommodated several of his needful fingers, though the exposed, goosepimply arm beneath was the one bearing the ring. Against it, and against the albescent windows, he endeavored to round her off under his touch, and to objectify with his mind’s eye what he could not objectify in any other way.

The photographs had been remarkable only in being unremarkable, and Michael could not help but feel Emma’s slight embarrassment by them back at the kitchen door. Beyond a bed, there seemed to be nothing of this fiancé she wanted to share with him. She was heading down a new road, he sensed, but where was it leading? Was he being invited along for the journey? Or was he only another pending embarrassment she would be quick to turn the light out on. The painter wanted to see the young woman as a misplaced valuable among such ordinariness in this rural house, but reflexively—defensively—, he was notorious for window-shopping. His thinking was as cowardly as it was convoluted in these matters. A braver, less complicated man would simply steal the woman outright, but he habitually acted by half-measures thinking he could trick himself into commitment incrementally.

Still, he trembled on the brink of annihilation in this wilderness, for an abyss of emotions threatened to swallow him whole. What he could say with conviction and sobriety was something at the center of him was wound tightly around something else. He could not say what either thing was, or whether the force involved was one of resistance or a latch wanting to be released. This, in practical parlance, was, for him, love. As long as yesterday and tomorrow could be held at arm’s length, what else could it be?

With prayerful, apologetic lips pressed to the base of Emma’s neck, he whispered to hear his own heart. “Without you, I am nothing.”